"old memories fade with time, but there's always new, happier ones to be made!"
somehow i don't think dwelling on the past works, but it's really true that the 'first time' is the best time. truly. for example, you can't imagine my exhilaration when i could play a proper note on the suona. it was like 'woooohooo!! damn proud of myself!' haha.. then there was the time where i learnt how to cycle, when i got hugged by a friend for the first time (i mean in SN, what were you guys thinking eh?), when i just found my clique and had the first enjoyable meal with them, when i first went to prick's church, etc. not that i'm saying that the following 'times' would be any worse but it wouldn't be as pure, as unique or as satisfying. somehow, sometimes, you'll get complacent and take the feeling forgranted. then, only when you've lost it or encounter some problems will you start appreciating it but sometimes that's just too late. haha.. but isn't this a good explanation for why should people save their virginity for that one and only special someone? isn't it a good explanation for why we shouldn't fall in love too easily? makes sense right? anyway, even if you've just risked or lost something special, then there's always the realisation that memories and scars will fade however slowly that takes and what a person can do is to be brave, smile and take things in his stride cuz this is life. :)