saturday 190604
[gossip. so much gossip..]
went to study wif van(again) and ken and liang yang. ken left halfway to 'climb mountain' then liang yang left too so tt he can join his psch frens and his chinese gardens(frm RV) for dinner or smth.
gossiped q a lil in between. got this idea tt there's not many secrets within the troop. once u tell sumone smth then he'll tell sumone else then he'll tell another person and it goes on and on until everyone noes. damn pathetic. hehe.. oso got lotsa baseless stuff. waliaos.. even the leaders involve themselves.(like u noe, part of a gossip or play a part in spreading? tsk tsk tsk..) :p
made van break her diet a lil. tempted her wif the cinnamon roll wif ice cream. muahahaha.. too bad. it juz tastes nice! ~grinx~ (this time i finished mine all by myselfff!! haha.. as in no monkey to pity. ;))
left at abt 6 plus 7. felt tt i studied a sufficient amt. :)

sunday 200604
[wait for me]
woke up damn early to prepare to go zoo wif my family. brought our maid along too so we were q squashed up in the car. haha..
reached there abt 8 plus. haha.. q nostalgic. the last trip to the zoo was damn fun!!!! realised tt go zoo muz go wif very excited and curious ppl! haha.. like my lil sis. she's like so happy and excited abt so many things. took q a few pix. haha.. sorta made up for the last time i din bring cam. bleah. and too bad the kiddy place was so crowded. if not culd haf gone and played wif my sis. haha.. splashing water wuld haf been fun mans! :) anws, all in all altho we spent alot as a family and there was some beking ard it was great time spent wif ppl i care abt. ~smilex~
went facial. ate dinner. went to visit gramps.
grandpa looked damn weak and miserable. started crying and calling me when i went into the hse. made me feel damn sad and helpless but the best thing a sad person needs is a person to hold his hand and smile at him so really cant end up crying or looking sad yeas? juz sat there and tokked and tokked and fed him the kaya bun tt he likes. anws wad i spoke abt is mostly crap and weird and corny things tt've happened in my life. oso repeated some stuff i knew he tot was funny like those dumb advertisements on tv. i noe it's such rubbish but at least he tot i was funny and amusing. it's like he made my grandma and uncle damn fed up by crying and crying(cuz he cant go to the toilet and had to use diapers and cuz he wasn't strong enuff to even straighten himself) but sometimes it's like tt when ur helpless, cant do anything abt it and haf lost confidence in urself and so many things u've believed in. noe he's got not much time left but still haf faith tt he'll be betta and we can go fishing tgt! hehs.. my lil sis told him tt she went out today and he juz said "u muz wait for ah gong hor?". dunno.. i juz felt damn sad when i heard tt. urghh..
tot abt alot of things. decided if making ppl happy or evn juz making them laff or smile is smth i can do well, then mebbe ill be a councillor or smth. or mebbe when i've earned enuff money thru councilling or any profession i end up in, then mebbe ill set up an old folks home. at least can bring some joy to ppl living the last laps of life. seriously daryl, i wasn't joking when i told u tt i wanted to be a councillor. it juz kinda popped into my mind when i was thinking abt my gramps. im thinking it mite be a calling or smth. dun gif a damn abt money anymore. it's enuff to live in a 3-rm hdb flat. worth alot less than making ppl a even a lil happier.
smile people! it's good for health!

monday 210604
[row row row your boat..]
ok. it's more like row row row our kayak. went kayaking today. ended up partnering daryl. felt damn sorry for him. he culd kayak a lil while i cant. wasn't sure abt lotsa stuff. capsized like with first hr. couldn't row properly. hands got tired too often. bumped into too many ppl cuz i din react fast enuff and din stop or push em away in time. then i couldn't carry our kayak properly and those rj ppl had to come and help us. made him look really bad. and i splashed so much water at him while paddling tt he looks so miserable and bek. and while we were breaking raft i dunno if it was my fault but he kena whacked by some other guy's paddle. arghhhh!!! im really really REALLY sorry dude for causing u so much trouble. im really glad we're like using single person kayaks tmr cuz even tho i noe im mozt prob gonna die a fren wuldn't die wif me cuz it isn't his fault rites? haha.. at least there's cai, van and ws!(see the way they do capsize drills oso sama sama la.. hehe..):p
hehe.. yeas.. went a bit mad today. giggled alot and for nothing. and now even when im sitting down normally i feel as tho im still in the kayak. u noe.. a lil rocking motion and all.. haha.. sun prob burnt my brains or culd be the whack i recieved in the head frm daryl's paddle.(see! i told u lotsa accidents happen when we're tgt!) but nvm. i forgive u since u forgave me for being such a shitty partner. hehs.. even wei sing tot i was mad. haha..
walked wif van, ws and cai after the prog for the day ended to go find a proper shower. walked for so damn long and couldn't even find one. still tot ws's sense of direction is damn qiang. sorry woman! muahahaha.. :p then so maluating to go back to bk to with no bath and looking damn miserable. ended up cleaning ourselves in the leisure park toilet. haha.. pity the cleaner despite wad u guys say abt helping em clean the floor man. hahaha...
sat and tokked crap and gossiped for awhile. then ws left to dunno where. took a bus to kallang mrt. van did smth extremely cartoon while walking towards the bus stop and i in turn did smth dumb while entering the train. hahahaha... had to use van to hide my face. even cai and daryl ignored me! evil piggys!! bleahhh.. haha..
they refused to go anywhere to walk or play so we headed home. lucky van's mom bot tix to go watch 'ard the world in 80 days' wif her. cai din wanna go out. still tell me go home and study! :( daryl tot all my outing suggestions sucked. 3 of us went back. saadddd... haha.. anws now im at home. ate some dishes at home.
juz recieved a call frm my dad. told me my grandpa's been sent to the hospital cuz the doc tot he's too weak. wth.. hospital air sux! but care's betta i suppose.. hais.. gotta bathe now before i become a worm. hehs..

i dunno...