i hate to see things once thriving left to wilt. life is damn fucked up at times. i wonder if there's even such a place as heaven to start with. and if only i had enough faith to pull me through everything. there are times when everything goes so wrong that nothing seems to be able to righten itself. there are times when i've gotta put more trust in God but i did not but im still forgiven and saved and still well as i am now. i don't deserve all these. others deserve it more than i.
and what's with some of the nurses in kk? treating the patients so callously? no wonder so many never recover. babies are treated with such positivity and kindness but why don't old people deserve the same treatment? just because they're old and wrinkled and incapable? fuck all those who do without feeling. how could someone just go about their job without realising it's humans you're dealing with? because it's not your first choice? then go be a bloody rubbish collector dammit. don't screw around with someone's beloved.

Why you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're acting like you're somebody else gets me frustrated
Life's like this you
You fall and you crawl and you break
and you take what you get and you turn it into honesty
promise me I'm never gonna find you fake it