damn frustrated. need a bloody outlet. sometimes i wish this ain't a public blog so i can fuck it up all i want without worrying people might pop in and see the crap that i've written or worse, tag some shit and end up pissin me off worse than ever. not that i haven't considered an alternative blog but il'l probably end up using only one so there's no purpose in that.
tried sleeping but overdid it and have gotten a bloody headache. attemptd homework but it was a disaster which also led me to the conclusion that i need econs tuition. badly.
this is torturous. not too sure what i'm so annoyed over either but i supposed it's the accumulation of many things. being nice and crazy sucks. somehow, unconsciously people expect it of you and you've gotta continue being that and keep whatever shit you feel inside. besides the feeling of not being to make your friends happier sucks too. this seems like a contradiction but only people who understand know it's not.
the misery of always having to look happy yet not being able to bring happiness.