went to an st vincent home with my batch today. it's the simple way of life they have that touches me. the residents are so accepting of their fate and that so many people they love have left them (though this leaves them pretty much a pessimist), and they're so appreciative of your efforts. there's this old lady who couldn't hear well and when i told her that next month when she got her hearing aid i'll come back and she was so touched and said something like "then i'll be able to hear every word you say". it's this sort of things that makes you feel like you can actually do something for the human race.
which brings me to what bert said yesterday when pauline and him and i were slacking around after pe yesterday. is it really true then? what we miss are the things that happened and not the people itself? is this because people come and leave all the time we'll eventually get used to the pain? is life really that inconsistent that we get used to that too? then maybe life doesn't teach us to be compassionate. perhaps it teaches us to become numb (to put it nicely, accepting).
and bliew asked once why when you have emotional problems you get a heartache instead of the usual headache. scientifically speaking, according to micky, it's cuz your brain sends signals to your heart. according to bert, it's cuz the brain is logical while the heart is not.
and about holding hands before you get attached or getting attached before holding hands, this is what prick has to say about my thoery of 'testing the waters' thus the first one making more sense- "perhaps it's good to test the waters to avoid heartache but what if you decide he's the one and he thinks otherwise? then it'll cause more heartache right?" makes sense? hehs..
oh yeas. settled most of my scouty stuff today and yesterday, namely, sending out invitations and sourcing for the right bakery. yay! :) and i found a cute j1 in xian yue sect!! lalala.. haha.. smart chris figured it out before i told him! haha..