did nothing much today. tiffy's pretty sad. as much as it may sound mean, i really hope we don't end up like that. luck WILL be on our side. yea whatever. say im obsessing with ajco but if you don't know and experience, you wouldn't understand. anws, bloody weather's like a fried ice-cream. super hot outside and freezing cold inside (i mean the air-cons in aj). arghhh... freak weather. freaky weather. day after tomorrow's a disturbing show..
went with cui da to town for dinner. funfunfunfunfunfunfunfun!!!!! ate yoshi cuz the j1s insisted and took neoprints. woooohoooooo!! squished like sardines and sweating like pigs but we were on sucha high that we were dancing to that dumb music. hehe.. and we uncovered benice's hots for zhong ying sheng guys partly cuz of the perversed act of the day and also cuz "they can blow into tubes and press buttons". never knew she was capable of such puns.
made our trip to SCH to watch tj's rehearsal. they're fantastic. better than us in every aspect other than unity. not exactly unexpected apparently they had to go through auditions to join. practically everyone has background and external co or whatever. now compare that to us. more than half started from scratch. in fact, less than scratch since there are people like me who are practically tone-deaf. take that scratch and work on it until almost everyone can enter syf. good enough to compete with major players. i'd say we've come a longer way. if syf judges by pure determination, effort, tears and need, we'd win hands down. i know the j1s wouldn't understand and feel the same cuz they've not been with us throughout the one-plus year, sat through all those ardous practices even during the bloody dec hols, start from nothing, having your first real song being your syf piece, and thus perhaps the feeling that some of them don't treat this as seriously as us but at least TRY. i really can't bear to see what everyone's strove so hard for to amount to just a silver. thinking back on the humble beginnings, the tears, sweat, scoldings and mental stress makes it all the more heart-wrenching.
and i hate it when people say "oh co's gonna get gold with honours right?" just shut the fuck up will ya? everyone's pretty strained as it is so just SHUT UP.