in any case i had a dream last night which i felt might be pretty symbolic or something. i dreamt that my class and some other arts fac people were on this project or trail or whatever. idea is it's some group collaboration thingy. we were staying over in school and were looking for a classroom to sleep in. somehow we went into 0203's room. (i dunno why but somehow it just is. anws, it's a dream!) and this classroom was super freaky. on one of the walls there're these hypnotic circles thingy and somehow they exuded this evil aura. on closer examination the circles were made of phrases from the bible but rearranged to give a totally different and twisted meaning. then there were these handprints of the members of the class but they were like just hastily slapped on such that the paint dripped down and dried that way. and the room was damn rundown with those brown slime water dripping everywhere. so we left the place (duh!) and i sent a msg to a friend who was from that class and he said the circles and words formed some doorway or blah. something cryptic la. anws the mystery wasn't solved not cuz i didn't question him further but cuz he didn't reply. as usual. suckerrr..
wait. here's the important part. so we went to my grandparents' place to stay instead. you know. the one at eunos. and it was like they're still around. the furniture and everything were at the usual positions and there was light. (i know it sounds silly but to me, everytime the main owners of a house dies, the house becomes really dark and lifeless) so we spent a night there all squashed up in the smaller room cuz my granparents always had the master bedroom. then in the morning i went to the kitchen like i always did when i was younger and i saw my ah ma there. she looked like she never had cancer. healthy and short just i remembered. and she was at the kitchen sink area preparing some food and i went beside her and we talked. we talked about my ah gong and how he passed away and all . and there was this silence but the scene is still freaking clear in my mind. it's like im just standing there in the green kitchen with all the light flowing in and enjoying my grandma's company and at the same time missing my grandad.
and somehow i've this feeling that this dream's a lil special. yeps.