well, we've approached the religion issue several times and i seriously don't think anyone should even attempt to change my mind about what i've decided. stubborn i know but hey! not the first day knowing me. and if it is, then you shouldn't even be mentioning this in the first place. i've thought about it, know what i want and i stick to it. pissing me off over this is truly not worth it i promise.
on a lighter note, i've completed my 15hours!! without cheating! hahaha.. damn proud of myself. but i wish there'll be more people studying with me. not that li chin's bad company but studying with a larger group will be more motivativational i think. besides i really ought to be more productive. i've only completed lit stuff this week. arghh.. i think i'm changing to the sec4-kan cheong-spider-mode already. prick and the morning support group outta mentally prepare themselves. prick especially. :p
i've been thinking.. i talk so much but i hardly voice out what i really feel. i mean i don't say much on blogs cuz some bastards can use what i say against me and i'll kena bombed like fuck. but even with my friends and family i hardly tell them what i really feel. perhaps it's good since i'm already so tactless. more tact will just incur more wrath. but sometimes i feel like i'm exploding inside. no one knows what i really feel. and thing is i can't express myself very well. not verbally and even on paper i've to wreck my brains for the right word. i hate that. i hate what i say not sounding quite the same as what i intend it to mean. i feel miserable with everything swimming inside threatening to burst but there's no exit. sometimes i envy kids cuz kids with their supremely limited vocab manage to convey so much with so little words and still manage to be so happy most of the time. what has happened to change me from that to this then? perhaps it's cuz life teaches you not to yell every joy and sorrow at the top of your lungs. or maybe it's cuz things become increasingly more complicated as you grow older and sooner or later you give up trying to tell everyone everything with your limited vocab. and in case you're thinking if i can't express myself then what do i talk about all the time, i'm really one who doesn't really mind making a fool of myself most times.
anyways, my folks said yes to the malaysia trip!! yayy!! planning the co chalet tho. why do i have this feeling that it'll never be carried out? urghh..