got this from vienna's blog.

( i) List 10 things you want to say to people but know you never will.
(ii) Dont say who they are.

1. just shut the fuck up. really. i don't actually wanna hear you talk.
2. you've never got this far so don't say you know what it's like. you don't.
3. stop messing and playing with my brains, my feelings and my life. stop it. cause i can't bear to tell you to.
4. how many times i wanna grab you and kiss you. but i didn't. cause you scare me and there won't be any future in this.
5. i hate committing to this. leave me alone and bugger off.
6. i still keep thinking you're just around the corner even after so long.
7. i used to think people live forever. i hate myself for that and i know you haunt my dreams because of it.
8. i wish you'd understand that time is fleeting. i'm afraid one of us will leave suddenly one day and there's still so much more to be done and said.
9. why do i put so much effort in something and so often, i merely receive mediocre results?
10. i don't watch porn. emotional commitment is my turn on.

i guess some of them you get an idea who i'm referring to. but shhh.. this shall be a secret between you and me.

met the girls for what i thought would be a stayover but my mom insisted that i went home. i was glad she insisted or i'd be dead tired in the morning.
but, it was still fun! made stuff like potato salad and dips and drinks. ate and ate and talked. i love hanging with the girls cause there's no expectations, no critical observations and instead, just lots of laughter, jokes and talks about the old times and our various lives. i haven't been so relaxed in the company of people in a very long time. i remember tze said a very long time ago that "no matter how long we spend apart, when we come together, we'd still fit together like pieces of a pollock puzzle".
by the way, did you know that little mermaid's only 16?? and she used to seem so old when we first watched the movie as kids!we all agree that we're getting old. looking at the girls in blue pinafores, we came to a conclusion that no matter how times change, the girls are always more or less of the same mold, with the same attitudes, same way of wearing the uniform and all.
i had judo in the morning. yes. still. i don't know how to keep it from my parents when school reopens cause trainings are on monday nights and if i stay late every monday and come home with dirty wet clothes, my parents would surely know. any good suggestions? haha..