i'm damn tired and pissed and stressed. over more things than one. it's not like i'm not putting in effort but ultimately i can't satisfy everything and please everyone.

i've got readings (it's barely 1 week into school and i've spent more than $30 printing ONLY readings), projects (there's one consultation next week already and projects are important cause they're grade-pullers), judo (freshies and senior attendance and coaching fees), 2 full days of tuition (on my weekends) and my depleting bank account to worry about (stop asking me out to spend money. i reallyseriouslyhonestly have no money. ie. 200+bucks in my bank. not including 2 more textbooks to buy) and i've a very expensive fieldtrip to go for and a holiday at the end of the year to save up for and lots of things to get for the ton of august babies.

i don't understand why people can't put themselves in other people's shoes. is that such a hard thing to do. i mean why do you do things to others that you know you won't enjoy being done to yourself? does it bring you much joy and happiness putting other people down and seeing them being upset about what you said? especially if those people are people you consider 'friends'. i also don't understand how people just fail to understand that all human beings need alone time once in awhile and while you can be cheery and chatty 90% of the time you still need some peace n quiet. seriously, i think people who fail to understand this are simply not human.

anyways, outpouring session over. i still don't feel much better. perhaps i need to get some sleep and maybe talk to some girlfriends in school (i hate school but what to do?) or something.