somewhat demoralised by CO. long story which includes something else that happened out of practice. we really aren't as good as we're led to think we are. sighh.. and every other aspecct of my life which requires hardwork or maintenance have suddenly started to demand for my full attention or dedication. there's only one me if you haven't realised. it's pretty taxing you know? and there's also the upcoming A's. if i don't get a single A i'd become the ultimate loser considering the laughable number of A2s i got for O's. what kinda joke fate's playing eh?