sighh.. i know i've been a shit ass recently by being so irritable and all. i've been pondering about stuff and asking myself about this and that. on one hand i feel horrible, lonely and somewhat insecure but on the other hand, i tell myself i can't care less and leave everything to Upstairs. i guess it's one of those shitty phases you go through once in awhile.
i've been so comfy and happy in my newfound friendships that it's times like these that i realise only a few people know how i function and what to do in times like these. even as our interests conflict, we know each other long enough to know what to or not to do and what to turn a blind eye on. i confess, i've been reading my testimonials on friendster and now i can't help thinking of all the people i've spent lots of time and been through thick and thin with. i wonder how some of them whom i hardly see these days are faring. i wonder when i'm going out with my old time buddies again. urgh.
meanwhile, i apologise to those who've tolerated my irritable self these few days. i'll try my best to recover asap.