Wednesday, April 25, 2007

insomnia can be caught through blogs issit? i was reading vienna's blog and she was describing her inability to sleep and the next day i got the same thing. it's been quite a few days now. i can't sleep more than 6 hours a day. and no. not a one go. like 3hrs, wake up, and another 3hrs, or 2hrs, wake up, another 2hrs, breakfast, then another 2hrs. it feels like crap. my eyes feel swollen perpetually, even when i'm resting. my brain can't function well (other than on adrenaline during the papers) and i'm getting quite cranky. at least i tried to use the waking hours to study but sometimes i'm really just too tired and nothing goes in.

B. that's what i get for everything. no matter how much effort i put in, i'll end up getting a B in the end. i've read my readings, memorised the important points over and over again. short of burning the coursepack and drinking it, i don't think i could have done anymore. practicals, essays, projects. all Bs. i'm a fucking B student. and judging by my performance during the last 2 tests, probably Bs again. or worse. C. if i don't get 3.65 this term, i'm not going to do honours anymore. what's the point? putting in as much as you can and merely getting a mediocre grade. crap.