ah sighh.. in the midst of an emo period now. nothing in particular. just a mishmash of things that numbs your brain and makes you teary-eyed and wondering at the cruelty and loneliness of life.
sally, i'm gonna tell the whole world the secret that i've been making you keep the past week. yes. sometimes i hate my friends' boyfriends. no. i'm not kidding. i feel sad thinking how they'd spend more time with them than i can or ever would. yea. it's a pretty shitty feeling. and what's worse? EVERYONE seems to be getting attached.
if that's not enough reason to be emo. i'm damn busy. in fact i'm drowning in readings. everyone in my family, and some outside, seems to need a piece of me. you think isn't being needed a good feeling? not exactly. in fact perhaps i've never felt as lonely before. how is it even possible that a person can be so busy and yet lonely at the same time? it's ridiculous.
they say when you give, you receive as well, if not from the same source. riiighhtt. that's a L.I.E. everyone gives more than they receive. or at least, i represent everone now. life is fucking unfair. so where does the surplus go? to the grass maybe. that's why they always seem so green.
there's nothing in particular i look forward to. everything seems so superficial under scrutiny but you still need to do it. this simply sucks. i know i told myself no more depressing posts but i need somewhere to pour it out before my brain crash and burn from keeping it all inside.