yayyy!!! finished my CTs!! haha.. but the 3 and a half hour haper was like super physically and mentally exhausting. wrote till all the green veins in my right hand started showing really clearly and all the parts of my hand in contact with the pen were like super red. sighhh..
anws, after the bloody lit paper, lim had to spoil our mood by reading out the names of those who owe homework (which was practically everyone) out and set time slots for us to come back and complete our stupid essays. i feel kinda consoled tho cuz while i owe 2 some others owe up to 7. hahaha... ok. im evil. shall shaddap.
then while mark went to take his paper and bert and hweis stayed back to do their essays, yimei, tif and i went to j8 to get the tix for "a lot like love". then we walked around to buy stuff. cant stand the way i search for stuff. told me it's damn woman la. but whateverr! it's still funn!! hehe.. ate at food court cuz tiff and i were broke and we all didn't wanna eat fast food. beef noodle is damn nicee!!! lalalaa.. so we walked some more and got stuff.
met with the rest to catch the movie. sat with tiff and mark so i started making kissing noises in the theatre. they're reactions were quite amusing. haha.. but nearly got bashed by tiff so yeas. and the show was niiiiceeee!! tiffy cried but it was supposed to be a romantic comedy.. anyways, it's nice so that's it man.
walked around more after that. window shopping mostly. got this body moisturiser thingy that smells nice from the natural source. the rest got facial scrub and nail polish or smth like that. shooping with my class girls is really quite productive. they're like super motivated to get clothes and try em kind. waahhhh... shall go out shopping with em more often. yay!
anws, everyone, cheryl's attempting to grow her hair so if anyone out there hears anything about her wanting to get a trim please stop her IMMEDIATELY!! must persevere mannn!!!
oh and an early HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY TO CARMMM!! turning 18 tmr eh? so exciting!! more things will be legal noww! hahaha..
ok. gonna end here. so muchel homwerke to complet. ~grinx~

im sososooo dead. haven't completed ANY of my revision. geog i've 3 and a half chapters more, basically everything, econs i've int'l trade and role of govt, two of the longest chapters for macro, and lit! i'm still unsure of so much stuff la! oh mannn.. what am i gonna do!!?? i figure i'll just do my best to study this time round and not worry too much about the results then really really mug properly for the prelims. the first thing im gonna do after this lousy ct is to plan my revision timetable, then make more econs notes then start properly on my revision. sighhh..
i'm looking forward to friday! gonna support carm for her judo com! so exciting!!! i've never seen her play before. hahaha.. being flipped sounds quite fun. i figure it'll be somewhat like flying. and she'll be coming my place. so fun man! hehe.. then i'll look forward to sunday! going to carm's church! yayy!! WHEN i become a full-fledged catholic, you'd better remember the bible you promised. heex.. THEN i'll look forward to monday when i go shopping with tze and ozi. everything sounds exciting. only now there's the cts to worry about. yucks.
didn't do much today other than try to cram geog and organise my desk. i'm feeling kinda recharged now. the question ernest asked really woke me up. in the midst of organising my life. and i know what i want. what i really really want. i can't really remember when have i ever been so sure of something but now i am and i'm not gonna let this something slip past my grasp. three things. mine and i want it.
feeling sick now. stomach's been feeling pretty shitty the past few days. on and off kinda thing. and don't tell me it's stomach upset cuz i'm pretty hardy and hardly get it. urghh... and dumb daryl still wants me to help him eat happy meal n get the heffalump toy so that he can jio girls. some ass friend...
and i'm missing ST!! lookin forward to the dec camp which i'm gonna resource with CARM!! though this is pretty unlikely and almost impossible i hope both mel and jules can resource the same camp as well. it'll be damn fun man! hahaha.. sighh.. must study hard then this will be my reward at the end of the year.

why do you have to lack the virtues i value?

went shopping with carmy today. photocopied notes and bought a lit reference. freakin ex. 21 bucks. walked around. ate muddy mud pie at coffeeclub. then went to the taka basement to get food for ernest, auntie theresa and the resources then went back to get our completed notes and got kopi o for the adults.
i seriously think there's something wrong with carm. saw me in skirt and said "eh! why today wear skirt? easy access issit?" and kept making kissing and slurping noises all the way. then she'll turn around and say "life's not all about sex". which i agree cuz life's about lots of thing all rolled into one. can't figure that woman out. but it's great hanging out with her. have someone who understands you and whom you can speak your mind to more or less. truly blessed to have several friends like that.
so after everything and my horrible direction sense, we managed to get to copthorne in a cab. blew more than 30bucks on cab fare this week. wth.. arrived to find everything in disorder so we had to rush about to arrange the chairs and write stuff for the cert. this batch of newbies can kill us. i mean not targeting em as an individual but as a group, but they really ought to learn to hurry and have some initiative. don't think they feel the responsibility towards the smooth running of the camp and the campers. kinda annoying. think the part-time and visiting resources did like this whole bunch of stuff and are more aware of wtf's going on la. poor carmy's bro. we all feel that he's been shortchanged. i mean he strikes me as a nice guy and all despite the attitude. yeas.
but on the brighter side, we chatted with auntie theresa. oh mann.. she's either damn informed on the latest news or news spread damn fast in superteens. either way it's kinda horrifying cuz auntie theresa's q beeeeg gossip. hope jules haven't heard anything or i'm finished. urghhh.. but chatting with auntie theresa's fun still. cuz we update ourselves on others. hahahaha... ernest keeps thinking im rachel. hope he remembers it this time. bleah. and yay! i got hugged several times! feelin good!! hardly get hugs these days.. hehs.. got the most from shermy. damn cute. mebbe i should make a point to pop by nyp more often to visit him. hehs..

it's more difficult to be a good human than to be successful.
-ernest

What Does Love Mean?
A group of professional people posed this question to a group of 4 to 8 year-olds, "What does love mean?" The answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined.
See what you think.....
1. "When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love."
- Rebecca -age 8
2. "When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You know that your name is safe in their mouth."
- Billy - age 4
3. "Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other."
- Karl - age 5
4. "Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs."
- Chrissy - age 6
5. "Love is when someone hurts you. And you get so mad but you don't yell at them because you know it would hurt their feelings."
- Samantha - age 6
6. "Love is what makes you smile when you're tired."
- Terri - age 4
7. "Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK."
- Danny - age 7
8. "Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My mommy and Daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss."
- Emily - age 8
9. "Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen."
- Bobby - age 5
10. "If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate."
- Nikka - age 6
11. "Love is hugging, Love is kissing, Love is saying no"
- Patty - age 8
12. "When you tell someone something bad about yourself and you're scared they won't love you anymore. But then you get surprised because not only do they still love you, they love you even more."
- Matthew - age 7
13. "There are two kinds of love. Our love. God's love. But God makes both kinds of them."
- Jenny - age 4
14. "Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday."
- Noelle - age 7
15. "Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well."
- Tommy - age 6
16. "During my piano recital, I was on a stage and scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that. I wasn't scared anymore."
- Cindy - age 8
17. "My mommy loves me more than anybody. You don't see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night."
- Clare - Age 5
18. "Love is when mommy sees daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford."
- Chris - age 8
19. "Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day."
- Mary Ann - age 4
20. "I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones."
- Lauren - age 4
21. "I let my big sister pick on me because my Mom says she only picks on me because she loves me. So I pick on my baby sister because I love her."
- Bethany - age 4
22. "Love cards like Valentine's cards say stuff on them that we'd like to say ourselves, but we wouldn't be caught dead saying."
- Mike - age 8
23. "When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and
little stars come out of you."
- Karen - age 7
24. "Love is when mommy sees daddy on the toilet and she doesn't think it's gross."
- Mark - age 6
25. "You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget."
- Jessica - age 8

lifted this from geogia's abandoned blog. thought it's kinda sweet. i like 1, 6 and 9 the best! :)

went to visit a camp yesterday to meet up with carm and mel. haha.. haven't been back in a long while. i'd like to say i've been busy but that's not much of an excuse eh? the cab driver who got me there was kinda cool yet scary at the same time. he took this shortcut thru this length of cemetry and like suddenly arrived at the hotel. ~gasps~
but anyways, yesterday was fun! met lotsa people i haven't met in a long time, hung out with the woman whom i cordinate the best with in camps and not forgetting the gossip.. hehe.. plagued ken about christine and got niaoed back and mel went and took this photo of someone's ass. not bad. q sexy. hehs..
so i walked carm to judo pract at which she successfully sprained her back (as she predicted) then walked back. then went with mel to toa payoh central where she had her piano since i've nothing much to do there and i don't know many of the resouces for this camp since they're kinda newbie. went junk food shopping. waited for an hour with all the plasic bags. wahh.. the cup noodles were like selling for 2 for 1.05 la! bought 10 and gave one to the taxi uncle cuz we were scared we'd get scolded by auntie theresa for buying so much shit.
went back at around man in the mirror and helped auntie theresa with the letters. jules arrived and crapped like mad. haha.. something about snapping a lumberkack's suspenders. damn kinky.. and heard something about her and this indian guy. seems like indian guys are getting pretty hot these days... hmm..
finished my inflation mindmap today. i really don't feel like continuing with int'l trade and role of govt. kinda tired and losing steam. and i can't seem to bring myself to study geog! arghhh...
on the brighter side, i went shopping with my mom and sis today at bugis and bought a skirt! yay! hehe..
oh forgot to mention that i've found out many superteens resources went over to the OTHER side. well, i'm alright with seeking greener pastures but i'll keep in mind my loyalties when i do.

shovelling through all the attandance and participation shit for ventures now. taking a break to blog since i've not updated in quite awhile. realised that though it's tedious and probably very unecessary to blog about every detail in your life, it's really convenient when you need to check back on some event or stuff like that. just type the keyword in the edit posts section and TADA! there it is. anyways, point is, that helped me a lot in the listing and dates of the activities everyone participated in. maybe i should update more often and include more details now. i mean you'll never know when you need all that info right? oh yeas. my english was pretty much shite a year back. in my blog at least. it's amazing how people managed to read my posts without vomiting blood. not that people don't get disgusted when they read my later posts, but well, less often i suppose. now, don't go checking my archives. it's embarrassing.
now to the details. haha.. went to study with tze and ozi yesterday. pretty fruitful. drew up several mindmaps. but im still behind BEHIND my revision schedule. kinda worried for ozi cuz she seems to have lost some steam or something. can't seem to bring herself to concentrate and all that. chatted some. apparently ozi cant wait to turn 21 to have casual sex. like wth?! she's gotta be the weirdest catholic i've ever met. and tze's ambition is to get married and be a housewife and have many kids. (you really ought to hook up with ozi's friend you know.) and me? i dunno what i want. let's just stick to the standard boyfriend-before-25-and-marriage-at-28 really standard sorta answer. but for this kinda stuff.. let nature run it's course yea? hehs..
bought earrings then rushed to bishan for dinner with ivan, van and bliew. haven't met up with em in quite awhile. the guys at least. ate at cartel for the first time!! how fun! haha..but the fried stuff (which was basically everything) got kinda disgusting after some time. somewhere in between, we discovered that cartel wasn't halal and ivan started telling his racist jokes. waliaos.. damn evil but the way he says em is kinda corny. haha..
oh and i took a cab ride home since i was getting some shitty headache. the cabbie was sooo corny la. he's like one of the nicest cab uncles i've came across!! you know.. friendly and all. and his english was not bad. oh. and he's from MARIS. where all the weird and sometimes disgusting guys come from. but aside from that, we had a nice chat (apparently he found me funny) and he charged me 60cents less. haha.. so sweet! ~grinx~
in any case, i've to complete the attendance and participation crap then take a nap then revise my econs then revise my geog cause i'm going out on wednesday and i want my mom to let me out! bahh..

i just read "flowers for algernon". it's really sweet and touching. everyone ought to read it. it won't take long anyay since it's just a short story. bout half an hour. yeas.
http://www.fictionbook.ru/author/keyes_daniel/flowers_for_algernon/keyes_flowers_for_algernon.html.

Even a feeble-minded man wants to be like other men.
A child may not know how to feed itself, or what to eat, yet it knows of hunger.

hmmm..

hehs.. just in the mood to pen something down. there's lots i wanna say but this doesn't seem the right place and time. can say i've learnt the lesson of not saying too much on your blog well. shall mention some trivial things then.
homework completed: chaucer
incomplete homework: predatory females, pc, gp and geog group work
sighh.. everyone ought to be consoled after looking at the work i've left undone. and there's still the cts to study for.
oh. met up with jason today to borrow notes which i thought i had lost. haha.. but realised they weren't in the j1 notes but rather in part4 of role of government. made him rush all the way down to compasspoint to pass it to me. felt sooo bad. wanted to treat him to ice-cream but he refused. haha.. nevermind. at least he stepped into the library for the first time in his EIGHT years over here. hehe.. chatted with him for awhile. shared some gossip. expressed the need for compasspoint to have a cinema. went to the cd shop then went back. kinda pity him cuz his track and field season's damn late and now this late into the year he's training like mad and still have so many cca obligations. poor fella.
anyways, yeas, i've watched cursed. not really worth the 7 bucks. one of the lousier shows i've seen. really need to catch mr and mrs smith tho. haha.. if not for the plot, then for the hot cast. ~grins~ and i ate the jedi master at nydc with my mudpie buddy. overrated la. about as overrated as the dark side at big o's. think the mudpie at the cafe (i forgot its name) outside orchard's kino tastes the best so far. talking about town. needa go get some lit references.
yeps! that's bout all. yeas.

TAURUS (Apr. 21- may 21)
Secret affairs can only lead to devastating circumstances. You will be your usual charming self and the partners you attract may be the adventurous type. Don't believe everything you hear. You may find yourself caught in the middle of an argument that has nothing to do with you.Your luckiest events this month will occur on a Wednesday.

this seriously doesn't sound too good eh? anws that's my horoscope analysis for the month of june. hsien jun introduced me to hososcopes and they're pretty freaky. some are quite true.. shall read up more.

i hate it when daryl's right. especially when it's something i don't like to hear but when i think about it carefully, he actually makes sense. but anyways, thanks dude for allowing me to unload. won't know what to do without you.
went to eat mee pok with tiffy after lit today. haha.. central's full of nice places to eat mee pok! there's the one at seafood junction where i went with practically everyone who meant something, then there's the one at the aj ice place which i discovered with the co peeps and finally the one near the s11 macs! hehe..
then mom picked me up and we went ikea. mom, lil sis and i. so fun! haven't been there in awhile. and we bought quite a lot of stuff. haha.. felt a lil guilty on our way back. hehs..
doing econs now and chatting with kuan liang who's facing an identity crisis now. hehe.. he's to marry me and become a house husband right now. hah! gonna set up my brand new notice board once im done with econs. lalala..

so tell me, what are you thinking now you traitorous imbecile?

was talking to daniel today and this talk i had with pric jie some time ago came to mind. when you're young and so full of dreams and aspirations, everything seems possible. as you get older, the trials and obstacles of life starts to get to you and sometimes you give up because of the weight. there are times when you're so weary and tired that you lose sight of em. i can't remember when i've started losing my dream. so many things have proved impossible that i don't have the guts to dream much.
and i feel guilty. usually when my mom nags i turn a deaf ear but somehow, this time it's managed to get to me. i hate facing reality but truth is, i've been neglecting my studies. i feel so bad. i've not touched a thing this hols and didn't call shawn as i said i would until after my mom's nagging this morning. i've been neglecting my family. haven't been for a family outing for AGES. everytime i return home my lil sis is soooo glad to see me but i always have no time for her. i haven't joked or talked with my folks in a long while or done anything nice for my second sis. i'm such an asshole. in addition to that, my results are like atrocious. econs is plain shit despite expensive tuition, lit stuck at a miserable C, geog as borderline as usual. i'm miserable. sighh..
and ernest asked me what's my dream the other day. i really didn't know what to tell him other than some loser answer like "errr... to work in the IR as a PR?" yeas.

these past few days have been pretty hectic with the superteen camp at sengkang sec and the famine aka starvation camp.
the camp at sengkang sec was an eye opener for me. have never worked with neighbourhood kids before, other than the ones i know in aj. they're really nice. even the bengs. they've some sort of integrity and loyalty that in my opinion is kinda warped. they love their folks alot despite the usual probs teenagers face with parents but treat themselves so badly. hmmm... oh! and i gotta know more superteen peeps like ken, nixon and daniel! haha..
starvation camp sucked big time. lame games, weird kancheong-spider group leader and horrible drinks. plus that hunger was horrible. my group members were fantasizing about food. and everyone started looking like food after awhile. haha..
now suffering from sore throat and cold and on the verge of getting a fever. sobs.. must be all that shitty food and lack of sleep thanks to famine camp and chat with carm. sighh..